♥ 我的心里话
Saturday, May 21, 2011
*Scars*
I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
I lock my heart up with heavy and unbreakable chains
My weakness is that i care too much about you even if I'm trying not to
My internal scars remind me that the past is real
My text messages shows me the feelings i had for you
I tear my heart apart just to feel the pain...
Wishing to numb it forever.. but i can't...
Because the scars just can't be healed...
*Masks*
I'm trying to be happy, wearing a smile...
But it's just too painful inside..
Everytime I see your face...
I realise how much i want to see you..
I realise how much i yearn for you..
But I wouldn't show it to you
And I know that you won't be there for me...
Thus i shall just sacrifice...
And hid the sadness behind the fake skin...
*Icy coldness*
I waited but you never show up
I waited for your messages and they too didn't come.
I stood there in the rain and wait for you to come
But you didn't show up
In the cold night, my tears started streaming down my face
You could not see them because it's being hidden by the rain
My body is soaked and my heart turned cold
But you were still not there to dry me or to warm my heart
I waited and waited all through the night
For your message to come or for you to show up but neither of them came
Ny heart shattered into pieces that night
And no one will be able to piece them all back ever again.
*Tears*
I stand there quietly watching the people walking past me
I listen to them talking, but..
They do not talk to me
They do not look at me
I act like i do not care... but...
I'm fighting to keep the tears back
When I'm alone, with only my mind
I feel the burn..
I feel them from everywhere
In my eyes, the tears, my heart
Before i know it
I'm lost in a lonely dark world
Nothing except my mind and myself
The tears that I've tried so hard to keep them back hit my pillow
They began soaking it and i just don't know how to stop the tears
I'm lost... Can anyone save me from this pain?
I'm drowning in my sorrow
Dying in my endless and unstoppable pain...
Pull me out, revive me, heal me or...
I will perish from this world... Forever...
*You*
Your smiles that were so sweet made me smile along with you
Your messages that I've read and deleted it still stay within me
The friendship that we made.. I never forgotten them
The light that you shine upon me.. lit up my darkest fear
The memories that we shared together are forever in me
I always treasure you in my heart...
But i never could have you...
*Merciless Love*
Lost alone and broken
Our words are unspoken
As tears start flooding my eyes
My soul slowly dies
I dream of your voice
I imagine your face
And now i know i have no other choice
To think you really cared
Would you even dare to try?
I run away to never turn back to forget about you
As i try to stay on track
You kept trying to push me back to the darkness
I see the cars going by me
Still thinking of how we will never be
I look up and see a dove
Now its to late for love
The sky cries around me
I know you'll never see
I lay back in the grass
Waiting for my life to pass
I know now my love is lost
And death is the cost
*Don't*
Don't say "I Love You" if you don't really care
Don't talk about feelings if they aren't really there
Don't hold my hand if you're gonna break my heart
Don't say you're going to if you don't even plan to start
Don't look into my eyes if all you do is lie
Don't say hello if really means goodbye
Don't send me any text messages if you're only gonna reply me short messages
Don't care for me till that extent if you're only gonna treat me as you friend
Don't say "Forever" just say you'll try
Don't say "Forever" cause "Forever" only makes me cry
*Sometimes*
Sometimes you need to hit the lowest point of being sad
The point where you can't take it anymore
The point where you completely lost yourself
The point where you feel that you are nothing in this world
The point where you think that your life is meaningless
But always remember to get back on your feet again
Without fear, there would be no accomplishment
No testing of our limitation
Labels: Chapters of my heart and my feelings
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